Being born from the womb of a drug addict, i know what it is like to feel alone. Taken away from my biological parents at the age of one by DFACs (Department of Family and Children Services), i know what it is like to feel abandoned. I remember being a little girl and having my alcoholic grandfather yell and say he wasn't going raise any grandchild of his. Being a 17 year old lady today, i can say i have been through a lot. Adopted and living happily with a mother, father, blood brother, and sister, I couldn't ask for anything better. When i was 16 years old, not seeing my biological parents for 13+ years, i finally decided i was ready to meet the people who abandoned me first. After i met with them, i was ready to have them back in my life. It didn't matter that they abandoned me, didn't matter that they hurt me; they put on quite a good show, made me feel bad for them. The day after i met with them i started writing a letter to them saying that i was going to give them another chance to be part of my life. My parents were upset, they thought i was rushing in it too quick. They told me to wait 2 weeks until i sent the letter. So, i waited. Almost exactly 2 weeks later my biological father had been arrested for production/possession of child pornography, exactly 3 days after i met them for the first time in 13+ years. Being arrested for production/possession of child pornography, he was on probation from seeing any minors. In Joshua 1:9, God says; "Have i not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go." God not only gave me an answer to my heart's question, but he allowed me my heart's deepest desire; to meet my biological parents and ask my questions. Sometimes it may seem like God is no-where to be found when you may need him the most. You may call out to him and he gives no answer. But just because you may not hear him or see him at the moment, God has a plan for you. So, wait and see, for God is Lord of the universe and his plans are far beyond our understanding.